Portia's Suicide Letter

My Dearest Brutus,

'It brings me great displeasure writing you this note, and I know you will be displeased reading it. Since the Ides of March, I have felt great despondency and sadness that my beloved husband has committed a crime against his dear friend, and his country. Brutus, you know Caesar was a great man, you heard Antony's speech. Yes, he did have certain ambitions, but he hath done great things for Rome. '

'My dear Brutus, a thought has been lurking inside of me. I truly do undrestand that your intention was to do great things for Rome. But, here I am constricted to my bedroom, in fear of the threats of the people wanting to avenge their Caesar. What strikes me is that I feel sympathy for them. After all, all they wished for was a strong leader, that cared. But it is done, Rome has fallen, and I shall fall with it.'

'I will leave you with one final thought, I've had a feeling that our relationship can not withhold the things to come. Even at this very moment, writing you this letter, I don't know if you are dead. What if you've already won, and I'm killing myself selfishly. That's the thing, I don't know anything about you anymore. Will you even return to me? Even if you do, you will have changed. I do not have trust for you, Brutus. '

'You didn't even trust me enough to take my opinion on the conspiracy against Caesar. I should be your first concern. After all, I am your wife. '

'Even if you do defeat Octavian and Antony, my faith in you has gone. If you do win, you will become vain and evil. '

'Antony's words spoke to me, and they spoke to the people of Rome. '

'I know you've always wanted whats best for our beloved Rome, but I strongly believe you made the wrong decision, Brutus. '

'This does not mean I will fall with hatred towards you. You are my husband and I love you, despite the mistakes you've made. '

'Take note of this my dear; even if you do win, you will be incapable of holding power, you will not believe in yourself, and neither will the people. This conspiracy has lead to chaos, and that is all it can become. '

'I can not change my mind, I have been alone for fat too long. I have missed you, Brutus, I have missed you too my death. '

'Brutus, as you are reading this, I will have already swallowed my hot rocks, and fallen. There is nothing anyone can do to stop me. '

Fare thee well my love,

Portia